A Loss of Something Ever Felt

Available until June 24 - Includes Q&A

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Film Info
Country Listing:Estonia
Premiere Status:World Premiere
Festival Info
Festival Year:2020
Accessibility:Partial Subtitles
Program Category:World Showcase
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Cast/Crew Info
Director(s):Carlos Eduardo Lesmes Lopéz
Producer(s):Liis Nimik
Davood Mousavi
Marcela Lizcano
Editor(s):Hendrik Mägar
Writer(s):Liis Nimik
Carlos Eduarlo Lesmes Lopez
Cinematography:Aivo Rannik
Giulia Ducci
Carlos Eduardo Lesmes Lopéz
Davood Mousavi
Composer:Ann Reimann
Sound:Gabriel Solis


Six months have passed since Lauri, a drug addict living in Colombia, called his mother Hille back home in Estonia, asking for money. After phoning embassies and police departments without an address or ID to go on, she hits a dead end. Desperate, she asks her daughter Eeva to fly to Bogotá and look for him. Bewildered as to how to search a city of 9 million, she reluctantly sets off. She was Lauri’s closest confidant when they were children, but a decade of his tumultuous addiction drove them half a world apart. Walking the streets he might have slept on, seeing the dangers he must have faced, she begins to know her brother again. But as sightings crop up through a network of outreach volunteers, Eeva soon fears what she might find. Lurching between hope and panic, her journey takes an unexpected turn that transforms this compelling chase into an unforgettable mission of the heart. Myrocia Watamaniuk

This film includes a pre-recorded Q&A.

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